Apparently I have Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I’m 33, how did this happen? I’m 33, I’ve been trying NOT to get cancer, how did this happen? I’m 33!!!! So I basically blame Monsanto. It’s probably their fault right? Did I mention I’m only 33?
We found a mass in my mediastinum, incidentally, via chest x-Ray and then not incidentally via CT and MRI and finally PET scan. It’s basically a tumor of lymph nodes. It is 11+ centimeters wide, behind my breastbone and in front of my heart. It does not hurt. I have no other symptoms. My blood work is normal. I feel good. I do have some shortness of breath with extreme exertion…didn’t bother me much as I’m not really interested in extreme exertion! I’m more a moderate exertion kinda gal.
So anyhow, that’s basically what I know. I have Stage 2 Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. I will need about 6 months of bi-monthly chemotherapy. I might need radiation after chemo. I will lose my hair. Probably frighten some small children in my life!
It’s been a month since we learned about the mass in my chest. My fucking tumor. Now that the diagnostics are finished, I feel much less stressed. And let’s say, just hypothetically, that this is a year long journey for us; the first month is over already! We made it through the beginning! I rock! You rock! We ROCK! I have felt so supported by my friends and family. Dan has been there by my side with everything I need. I cannot fathom how much harder this would be without him. My mom has said from the beginning, anything I need, if it’s in her power she’ll make sure it happens. Gifts from sweet sisters, hugs and love and food from so many, prayers from the believers and love from the rest. I have been lifted by these kind words and messages during this time when I really didn’t feel strong or badass at all. It’s starting to sink in, that I can have cancer, treat cancer, and be myself at the same time. That I am strong and badass and tuff!
So I will write a little blog. I will do my best and forget the rest. I will enjoy the next 6 months for what they are, another beautiful challenge I get to try my hand at in this crazy life.
Much love to you and yours
Kel
You’re amazing Kelly! I’m so proud of you !! All the love and support in the world !!
Xoxoxoxox
Chris and Niki
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You got this, lady. Love you!!!
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I am stoked you started a blog! And it’s such a heartfelt inspiring one at that!! ❤️
Thank you for sharing this life changing journey with all of us! I am so glad you have so much love and support behind you to help you beat this!!
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Love you and your open heart. Thank you for sharing, Kel.
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Don’t forget – it’s ok to not be a badass all the time. Feeling mad, sad, depressed, scared, or just plain pissed off is allowed, too.
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